Oh screw this.

because this kind of thing creeps up to you at the most unexpected time and catches you off guard. one stupid glance and it's a goner. and i don't know what to feel anymore.

sometimes, there is just nothing you can do to turn things around.

please don't let my study mojo leave me.

hoarse voices are evidences of the raging spirit burning within the souls of many tonight. it marks the end of something amazing and start of something new. i will face the obstacles thrown at me with determination and make it through the year. I will and I can. Well actually, I must.

And I wonder if any of this is gonna turn out fine because I've had enough of shit in 2009. Please just be kinder to me this year. It's sick how pathetic I am now cause I'm on the brink of tears as I'm typing this out of desperation. Can life just pause and rewind to term 3/4 last year?

I are addicted to talking like this. I think people will wanna whack us if they hear us talking like that :( hehehehe but i really love my freak-like cj friends!!

I shall go read math notes soon and maybe start tutorial before everyone else does ^^

To be honest, I'm afraid of everything the year ahead holds for me. So many thoughts run through my mind every night when I lie dead awake in bed that I can find myself still awake hours later. Then it struck me that I might have phobia for change which propelled me to google more about it earlier today.
(you can go phobialist.com to find out your phobia haha. there are a lot of interesting phobias there and some are just, weird.)
How apt are the negative consequences!!! I keep avoiding changes and get all stressed up when a small part of my life falls out of sync. And that sucks, bad :c
I don't know how to deal with this, all I know is run. By any chance at all, I wouldn't have to face what I don't wanna face. But who am I kidding huh?

Skit by the facils this year is damn epic. It's doubly funny when I know the retards on the stage hahahahha. Gotta love them plz! Anyway, today was a good day despite realising how clueless I am about the school. Hope it gets better :)

Island Creamery with teresa and cedric to waste our friday afternoon away was pretty nice too (Y) Fresh Banana ftw.

I had kids meal @ popeye's and my surprise gift was a kitkat. Yeah, a kitkat. Waste money HAHA. I am damn tired from frisbee. I shall sleep before 12mn today!

Everyone have their own ambitions and dreams but only so many truly make it. Those are the ones who believed in themselves and give their best shot. Whereas others are too afraid to weigh themselves down with what seem the impossible.

It's possible. Just have faith.

I walked home from outram alone again instead of taking the bus. And that usually meant I want time alone to sort out my feelings and thoughts. Which usually meant that I'm pretty troubled.

I'm actually really fond of walking alone out on the streets at night. With the wind kissing your cheeks, strangers passing you by and songs blasting through the earphones. Its simplicity and mindlessness is mad awesome. But there are times I wonder, what if it stays this way forever? The night, me and the strangers. All alone. It's kind of scary.

I am damn awake now. Well, tonight was interesting. I gained some insights on how pro the info hubs of cj can be. And how people get max caught up in the midst of all that smoke and alcohol. Dragged terterwong off the bed with cedric so that we can cab home all together and she keep saying she some snorlax wtheck hahahha.

And I won't let what others think or say bring me down. I can do this. I can get over this piece of shit.

Some J5s came back to visit and we played frisbee with them for awhile. They are freaking funny please, all the jockey and charger shit HAHA. I'm so tired, I think I sleep too much oh well.

Yeah I can take jokes all but can people think about how the other person would really feel at times? It's just bloody demoralising sometimes and it reaches a point whereby it doesn't matter whether it's a joke or not anymore. It just hurts. And I can't believe I'm actually crying over this wtf. What is wrong with me.

“It happens in every relationship. Eventually somebody betrays somebody else. Either in a big way or in a million little ones. It’s just the nature of it.

I'm going to be late for training if I don't switch off my computer within the next 5 minutes.

canoe and frisbee makes me a happy person :) i luuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuv the canoe girls, feel like giving all of them a kiss now hehehe (K)(K)(K)